High School

How have I spent this time away from you my blogger friends?! Well funny you should ask.. As hard as I try to stay away from Muskegon I always find myself dead in the center of its drama department. I get sick and frustrated with it....but when i hear myself start to complain I realize I ask for it. My three best friends are always causing some sort of scene usually involving the other, and I play middle man. When I get talked to about the situation I can just say "oh" or "yeah" but instead I listen intently and try my best to help solve the situation.
When I look back and see that, I wonder what I am really running away from... if it was the "drama" I could avoid it. I keep thinking about it, why did I so desperately try to run from Muskegon and high school when I keep finding myself looking back at it?
The answer I suspect is because that is what society tells us to do. "get out of your boring old town and make a name for yourself" but how am I to know if I won't just get stuck in this town away from my family and friends. Its the thing to do now a days, go to college and get a degree and then work your life away.
Now i'm not going into my whole financial crisis because we would be here all day... but since this happened I couldn't help but think what if this happened for a reason? (thats what I think after every situation though) What if i wasn't meant to leave Muskegon yet? My 3 best friends are there, my moms there, I would have a job and take easy classes, my boy would be back there. Really the only thing keeping me here is my sorority. I truly love them and they have changed my life: made me stronger, wiser, braver...I was afraid to leave them because we were so small but now with our chapter doubling, I'm a lot less scared to leave.
My biggest inspiration comes from a girl who got me into blogging, she still lives at home, goes to community college, works minimum wage jobs...but honestly she is the person I am most inspired by. She does what she loves, always has time for others, gives back to the community, and always remains positive. I can't help but think that this is what life is truly about. Its not about having this big time job and working your life away, although it is the american dream to die filfty rich, but what do you really get out of it? Its the stuggles of life that make it
. I know this whole thing sounds cliche....but maybe I did discover the message at the end of the film and its now time to go live it out